Maybe it is enough?

What is enough? Would $45,000 be enough? Free rent? Guaranteed $500 everyday? Maybe the free use of a car and free gasoline? What would satisfy my feeling of need? What would finally make me sit on this suede coach in my Minneapolis house, coral spray roses sitting in a large mason jar on the coffee table, my propped up feet with a sigh, "I have plenty."

It seems the shortage of money makes everything else seem scarce too - my patience, my giving to people and the Lord, and even my desire to serve others.

Weaving through Plymouth on highway 55 tonight, young couples hustling from Ruby Tuesdays and AMC theaters, I found myself driving to Lunds for flowers. My assigned job at Sarah Rolf's wedding on Saturday was taunting me - the designated corsage lady. Little did she know she gave this important task to an unexperienced, accident prone pin person.

My mom said, "How are you going to practice?"

"Well, I'll just pin a pillow or one of my blouses." This was followed by a rather condescending cackle.

After picking up my necessities and hanging up with my mom, a Chris Tomlin song came on KTIS. I have this horrific habit of singing along with songs, even when I have "O.D.ed" on them and start to cringe at the first measure of the song.

The first phrase that reached my ears was, "Remember your people, remember you children, remember your promise, Oh God." What promises?

Promises like Romans 8:28, "God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Or maybe Joshua 1:9, "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

But when I was ready to let that one phrase somehow penetrate something more than just my ears, the next, way too familiar chorus rang loud in my green Camry, "Your grace is enough, your grace is enough for me."

Enough. HIS grace is enough? That is all I need? Don't I need a job? Stability with income, in relationships, in my emotions? Jesus' death and life is ENOUGH?

And maybe, just maybe that is what He has been waiting for me to grasp this whole time.

I only need one thing, and I already have it. I already have Him. And with that one realization, I can change the world.

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes?

See how the lilies of the field grow.

They do not labor or spin.

Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor

was dressed like one of these.

Matthew 6:27-29

Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me,

and I will listen to you.

You will seek me and find me

when you seek me with all your heart.

Jeremiah 29:12-13